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Sometimes I wonder why the journey of spirituality is so difficult. Why in some seasons it's so easy to yearn for Christ, and in others you are in constant reflection of the "zealous, super-eager Christian" you once were. Is it even possible to not go through the slow times? Or are they are imperative to our walks that we wouldn't grow at all if it wasn't for the deserts...

Well I'm over my desert. I want more. I want more of Christ. I want more wisdom & knowledge. I want more of who I'm supposed to be. I want more passion. and I want more love.

the remedy?

pursue even when the feelings aren't there.

So, here I go!

Digging in the Word today I read Jeremiah 17... Lo and Behold look what verse 5 says!

This is what the LORD says:
"Cursed is the one who trusts in man,
who depends on flesh for his strength
and whose heart turns away from the LORD.

If that's not the Lord reminding me that I must be in a continual pursuit of Him and not dependent on myself then I don't know what is! It goes on to say that this man will not recognize prosperity when it comes. This is huge for me too since my husband and I are at a point where we are just beginning and we so desperately want to be successful in whatever we do.

And then the Lord gently showed me reason number two why I should not neglect my spiritual walk... Check out verses 7-8

"But blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD,
whose confidence is in him.

8 He will be like a tree planted by the water
that sends out its roots by the stream.
It does not fear when heat comes;
its leaves are always green.
It has no worries in a year of drought
and never fails to bear fruit."

A-mazing! What a wonderful and glorious life it would be to have continual confidence. To not fret when storm clouds are in the near future. For we can hold the confidence that the Lord is working on our behalf!

And following truth number two rolls in truth number three. If I'm to live a different, sold out to Christ life my heart must be different. Check out verses 9-10--

The heart is deceitful above all things
and beyond cure.
Who can understand it?

10 "I the LORD search the heart
and examine the mind,
to reward a man according to his conduct,
according to what his deeds deserve."

That's a big chunk for me to grasp today. Oh I love when the Lord continually shows patience to me. I am so unworthy of His love but I desperately want more!